I love God. For years I have been ashamed of saying that. I have held two truths in my hands; 1. God is good, and 2. The church (God’s people) cause so much hurt that faith has become like a foul word; a harmful one.

I don’t write this blog to transform or convince anyone. My faith journey has been messy. I am learning every day that I walk with God, and I kind of love that.

Life is complicated. It is filled with moments of joy and moments of deep grief. It is challenging because we have freewill and what we chose to do with that is very much down to the individual (and this forms society). It is messy because we all want to convince one another of our truths. 

I don’t write this blog to transform or convince anyone. My faith journey has been messy. I am learning every day and I kind of love that. I don’t feel, just yet, that I fit in. But I do know that I no longer wish to compartmentalise my life. 

Friends (in healthy arguments) have found it baffling that I believe in God, noting that they thought I was intelligent. Side note here, they were overestimating that!

But, joking aside I believe faith takes a different type of intelligence.

The Cambridge Dictionary say that intelligence is the ability to learn, understand, and make judgements or have opinions that are based on reason. 

I believe that spiritual intelligence exists: the ability to explore beyond our understanding. We understand that we are made up of billions of cells, but that we are more than just these building blocks. We have consciousness that cannot be seen but we know is there – and it is yet to be fully understood. Faith. Trust. This makes us more. Without them (whatever faith may look like to any one person) we are limited in our lives.

So, this stream of my blog will look back at my writings of faith as I have journeyed, and forward as I continue – whatever that looks like. It will be honest in times where unbelief has been much louder. Or the many times I haven’t trusted. It will likely explore my fractious relationship with the church. I will share stories of times I’ve known God powerfully in my life. I hope it will allow me to explore theology, and the relationships between various faiths – we have so much to learn from one another. Come along with me for the journey if you chose. But if not, check out one of my other areas of writing. 

God bless you.

H x